so wat happen on Monday? i became the big ugly monster. hated by everyone and especially my own Love. wat exactly happen? well, after finish typing (previous post), i got ready to go out. i kept reminding Mum dat my tuition is at 2pm. which was den pushed back tp 4pm.

we went to Arab Street for lunch and to Orchard, in hunt for my shoe. while Dad and brother went for prayers, me and Mum went to Paragon Metro. i was going half mad searching for the perfect shoe, but none available. wen i saw a nice one, it turn out to be pig lining shoe. (damn those creators)

so, in the end, i bought nothing and mum bought a Carlo Rino bag.

at this point of time Love was pissed of at me cuz i kept changing the meeting time.

we kept walking ard Paragon. i wanna find Charles & Keith but ended up in U.R.S&inc. i bought myself a thong slipper cuz my feet was swelling beneath the old pump shoes. and Mum bought herself another slipper.

the family den headed to Harbour Front Shopping Center. its been a while since i went there. VivO was all jam. at Harbour Front, Love was angry and dont wanna talk to me. we had sms-war and i totally had no mood to shop. walk around the place to find pump shoe for me but none was attractive. went to look for pants but no available size. we ended up at City Chain, buying brother his advance birthday present.

Dad and brother went to Masjid Temenggong, across VivO. for Asar and me and Love had a tongue fight. he wasnt being reasonable. and i couldnt escape. i pity him cuz he was the only guy there w/out a couple. afterall it was supposed to be a couple gathering. and also a belated birthday celebration for him. i felt so bad wen he said "semua dgn couple, i mcm budak bodoh sorang2 kat sini". i sms-ed Fidah and apologize and try to make up but all my plans went down the drain.

the family went to East Coast Food Village for early dinner. had BBQ seafood. i totally had no appitite. final plans were made. Dad was to sent me to Love & fren's picnic place. i insist dat Love will sen me home (his house) for tuition later but Dad kept insisting dat he sent me there straight. he even insist on sending me home first to wash up before going tuition but i refuse cuz once im home, i'll be lazy to go out again.

with my deepest regret i had to sms Love and Fidah, telling them i cant make it. i reach Love's house at 7pm. luckily his mum wasnt angry. i settled down for a moment before tuition start. half hour later, Love came back. he was in the perfect way dat i love. all clean, shaven, shirt button, ring at the right place. i was totally in love wen i saw him. but he didnt not look at me. not even a glimpse. if not cuz his Mum was in front of me, i would haf teared.

he was asleep wen i finished tuition. he refuse to wake up. but he had to cuz his Mum wans him to sen me home. his Kakak was driving. he refuse to even look at me. i walk straight and no looking back. tears in my eyes. he didnt bother. Kakak had to call me to the car. i cried wen i saw Love, not even looking at me. but i had to do something. it was my fault, practically.

we end up hugging at the back seat. he forgive me, i miss his hugs and kisses. im glad it was resolved. he sen me to my door step. we had a heart 2 heart talk and everything was ok. i still felt bad. i couldnt sleep, thinking about it.

yesterday, Dad was having his off day. got up early to go out with Mum and Dad. went to Serangoon, Mustaffa, to buy Mum groceries. headed to Orchard to collect my watch, which was sent for servicing. headed to VivO for lunch. i didnt had a good lunch. the stall was slow. the food wasnt nice.

and finally, i went to Charles & Keith to find my shoe. there were no flat pumps but i end up buying a boot. and Mum bought another slipper. bought bolster and pillow for brother and home we went.

i had tuition later in the evening and i promise Love a treat for dinner.

anyway, for the past 2 days, a tuition, i felt a bit good. why?? this is cuz all my hard effort teaching didnt come to a waste. finally, these 2 days, the boy learnt something. Adik could do this multiplications and divisions. and yesterday, greatest achievement, he got his spelling after less den 10 tries and he did his division all on his own. i was proud of him. so do his Mum. i jus hope it stay in his mind and doesnt run away.

dat sums up my long entry. apologies to those who got "bubble"/"buih" by me. i didnt plan it. i felt bad. im the big ugly monster!!

photos coming up next!

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